Fernanda Hanson decided to commemorate the Mother’s Day with a very different message, and shared a text in which he narrated how were the three losses he has suffered and wanted to deliver a message through her words for those who have suffered the same as her.
Is regarding a letter you sent to The Clinicbut also wanted to show on Instagramwhere he points out how he experienced the whole process, noting that it all began when “That summer followingnoon in 2016, I took the second (pregnancy test), hoping for a positive that would confirm a brother for my daughter. And it was a clear positive”.
After talking regarding his happiness and the projects he was beginning to have for when his son was born, whom they would call Gabriel, “by decision of his father, a lover of Peter Gabriel’s music. And although I loved it and I associated it with the Archangel Gabriel, I still smile thinking regarding the reason for its name”, He recounted the complicated episode he experienced.
Fernanda Hansen and reflection on her losses
“The figures are cruel and I fell into those 3 out of 4 women who lose their pregnancy in the first trimester. There were a few weeks of love and enthusiasm, but it stopped growing. ‘Sorry, no heartbeat,’ they told me at an ultrasound. How those words hurt!!! Because although the figures warn you, the numbers do not feel. ‘And what do I do with his name now?’ I thought. What do I do with all the illusion and psychic and physical energy put into this expected child? How do you chew a pain that is also made invisible by society?“, Wrote Fernanda Hansen.
In addition, he reflected on the process of grieving and everything he suffered at that time: “The illusion and the image of the future were broken and that hurt. It hurt, period. And my uterus and breasts ached. My soul ached. it hurt me period”.
After overcoming the mourning, she tried to have another child, but once more suffered a loss. The journalist ended up suffering the same process two more times following Gabriel. “She was the mother of a daughter in life, but also of 3 in her dreams and in the duel. Yes. I have a daughter and 3 gestational losses”, pointed out Fernanda Hansen.
Finally, in the letter, which was published in The Clinic and on his Instagram, he reflected on how he commemorates Mother’s Day, noting that “My daughter Amalia hugs me for everyone. For those who were my wishes, those who remained in the illusion and waiting. She hugs me for those positive tests and the changes they left in my soul and in my body”.
“Hugs me for those years of my life, dedicated, body and soul, to gestate once more, to walk with more hearts beating with me. That is why I also say: Happy day to all the mothers who continue to try to be accompanied in this life, for another heartbeat, “the journalist closed.