Av Johanna Eriksson / PHOTO: Jan Pieter van Eerde –
30.09.2024 / 08:41 / Reading time: 2 min
Last summer lost Miriam Bryant his older sister Sarahwho died of cancer at the age of 41. In SVT’s program Beloved Friend she and her sister talk Elisa Bryant about the great grief and how the family has struggled to deal with the loss. Over a year has passed, but it’s still hard to accept that Sarah is gone.
– I have such a day today. I don’t think she’s dead today. I can’t believe it, says a concerned Miriam Bryant in SVT.
After his sister’s passing, Bryant was in an intense period of work and distracted himself by touring with Veronica May. Only now, a year later, is she beginning to sink into grief.
– After she passed away, I worked a lot in the summer. I was on tour with Veronica. So it was easy for me to distract myself with that stuff,” Bryant said.
– Now is the time to catch up. I have felt that this period, the last few weeks. That I get out of this bubble a little.
Even so, Bryant hasn’t been afraid to face grief. She believes that the family is slowly getting used to the fact that Sarah is no longer around.
– No, I think we have started to get used to the fact that Sarah is not there and that you process a lot unconsciously.
For Miriam Bryant, music has been a way to process grief. Writing and being in music has helped her get closer to her sister’s memory and allow herself to grieve.
– I would like to be in mourning. I think of Sarah when I access the fact that she is dead. There is something redemptive and affirming in being able to feel that sadness. The closer I am to her in thought, the more I have to mourn that she is no longer there, she says.
But it is also difficult to deal with the feeling of distance when the grief does not feel as strong.
– It’s hard when you feel distance. I feel strangely rejected when I don’t tear up. I don’t know. Damn, what a lot of therapy I have to go to, says Bryant.
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