Cara Delevingne has lived under the fire of photographers’ flashes for years. First famous model, then actress, the celebrity accumulates the front pages of newspapers. Through these covers, we could see the model in all its states, including the most disturbing.
A few months ago, pictures of Cara Delevingne had caught the attention of her fans, worrying about the state of her health.
On Wednesday, the model took advantage of her interview with Vogue magazine to come back to these images as well as the ordeals she was able to go through.
”It’s heartbreaking because I thought I was having fun, but at some point I was like, ‘OK, I don’t look good’she explained. You know, sometimes you need a reality check, so in a way these photos made me grateful”.
For the actress, everything was fine until adolescence, when “everything fell apart”. “That’s also when I started drinking and partying. I needed to escape and change my reality, because I was asking myself huge questions: What am I doing here? Who am I trying to be?”
Cara Delevingne returns to an anecdote that has cause for concern: her first hangover, which she had at the age of 7. “I woke up in my grandma’s house, in my bedroom, hungover, in a bridesmaid dress”, she explains, recounting having finished all the glasses of champagne on the occasion of a family wedding.
Then, at the age of 10, following a dyspraxia that she was diagnosed with, the model began to take sleeping pills. This marked “the beginning of mental health problems”. At 15, the model was depressed, giving her access to antidepressants.
”Many people were very worried. It’s a scary thing for the people around you who love you“, she says, facing her fans and relatives mortified by her condition in recent years. “All I knew was if I kept going down the same path I’d end up dying or doing something really stupid.“, she admits. “The treatment was the best thing ever. I was always scared, but I think I needed this community. I needed this support group.”
finally sober
”I used to always look for a quick fix to heal, going to a week-long retreat or a trauma class, for example, and it would help me for a minute, but I would never tackle the essential, to what was deeper”, says Cara Delevingne, now sober for 4 months.