It is said that everyone makes mistakes in life. The main thing is to know how to redo and correct that mistake. However, for me, there is one thing that still bothers me. Because even now, when I have the conditions, there is no longer a chance to correct my mistakes.
I was born into a traditional family. From a young age, my parents taught me to focus on studying. As for love, it’s okay to be a little late. Therefore, when I went to university, away from my parents’ arms, I was surprised when I entered my first love.
In my 2nd year of university, I started going out to work part-time. At that time, my family’s finances were very tight. Every month, my parents have to borrow money to send me money to live. On the other hand, friends around all work part-time to cover their income and gain more experience. I was afraid that I would be inferior to my friends, so I followed suit. As a waiter for a restaurant, I quickly caught the eye of the owner. Honestly, I know you’re married. But when I hesitated to open my heart, he declared firmly:
“We are regarding to go to court for a divorce. See, this year, I have never posted pictures of my wife and children on Facebook.”
Indeed, I did not find any pictures between them. Not to mention sometimes, he even brings pillows to sleep at the restaurant. That makes me believe that what he said is true. Then I decided to come to him and hope the divorce between him and his wife goes quickly.
Loved for 6 months, my lover still shows no signs of ending the marriage. Every time I asked him, he would give me a reason. Sometimes the children are sick, sometimes they say they have not finalized how to divide the property. In the end, while the matter was still unresolved, I received the shocking news, which is 3 months pregnant. What’s sadder is that when I heard this news, my lover turned 180 degrees. He said there is no such thing as leaving his wife to marry his girlfriend. As for the child in my stomach, I want to calculate whatever I want. The very next day, he also forbade me to set foot in the shop.
As a university student, my parents are traditional, so it is definitely unacceptable for me to have an unwanted pregnancy. Moreover, the father of the fetus is in another marriage. If I reveal this, my parents will have no face to look at the neighbors. At that time, I had to go to the hospital 3 times to handle the baby. But because of fate, every time it failed.
At the last meal, I sat down to talk with a barren sister. Hearing my situation, she held my hand and begged:
“My dear, children are a gift from God. They’ve been married for 13 years and still don’t have any children. If you didn’t need it, or just gave birth to the baby, you and I would adopt it and treat it as your own.”
Hearing that, I also felt sad. Then following that, I kept begging to not go back to my hometown to visit my parents. As for them, every month, they take me for an ultrasound, buy supplements, and don’t lack anything. The day I gave birth, my brothers and sisters also came and paid all the hospital fees.
It is true that my child was born out of intestines, so I always wondered, not knowing what to do. But I broke my promise to people, I had to follow the agreement. After giving birth for half a month, I let the child take care of that family. After completing the procedure, she turned around and told me 100 million, as a post-natal allowance. Honestly, at that time, I was really poor. Something to think regarding, if I hold 100 million, is it different from selling my child to someone? So I just told her:
“Come on, sister, I made a mistake, so I had to send my children to my brothers and sisters. I don’t want to be known as selling children. My tuition fee is 18 million, I only ask for that amount. Besides, I just want you to love her like your own child.”
In the end, I received 18 million to give my children to someone else to raise. Since the day I left you, I miss you dearly. On her birthday, I wonder if she will have a happy birthday, if she will be loved and protected by her adoptive parents.
A year ago, I graduated from school and got a good job. Having money, I am more motivated to find children. However, regarding the address of her family, it was said that they moved to another place more than a year ago. Something my neighbor told me:
“The house loves her very much, I can rest assured. He and his wife are both gentle people.”
That statement gave me some comfort. But as a mother, I just want to meet you and know what your life is like. By the way, I also hope to have the opportunity for you to read this article. If you still remember me and our story, I hope you will give me a chance to fulfill my motherly duties.
